Love & Life

Hey guys...long time Since I've ever updated this....well just wanna say...so far I've healed with everything else. ^^

But saddly, the love part of my life really does suck in a way...Lets just say I really...like...love this guy who dated my cousin...but they're over....and he loves me...but it's just confusing how everything turns out.
You know how I said I wouldn't waste my tears on just anybody, well this time, I wasted my tears on a guy...pathetic me right? Crying for Love. Well, I can't really say that myself, feelings are the strongest power you have I think and it takes over your body and will make you feel weak so I do...and I still do cry until I don't know...My heart's healed and everything's clear. *smiles a bit*

Seriouslii guys...I can't stop thinking about him. He's in my mind, in everything I do. My friend had to slap me just to get my attention, even yelled at me to stop thinking about him. Yeah right like that can happen, she just made me think about him even more. OH! And we were playing some game where she would ask people random questions about their personal stuff and somehow she ended up asking me who I like....I choked. I seriously choked! and she knew and some other people were around...But I managed to say his name after 30 seconds of silence..No, Im not going to mention his name...mainly cuz...I don't want to. ^^"

I wasnt really going to mention this but....Tika...my friend that was asking the questions...told me...uhm...*coughs*....got some bad imagination in my mind and was showing and making some very inappropriate noises *coughsmoanincoughs* and I figured out what my...sex noise was...really Pervy I may say..Grah! its in my mind again! o////o....>////<

okay, so I haven't been the happiest girl around, in fact all through my school days I havent been "Happy" at all, only at Annie & Tika's grad I was really laughing, and whenever I hang out with some friends you dont know about at all. At school I've been, I dont know, as my bro Danny says, Quiet, truly unlike me since I am never quite, most of the time jumpy and around the place 24/7, now..I dont know, I've just become a bookworm staying quite and reading books. Not like me, but when Im quite usually I think about him. Haha....today during 4th period I was thinking about him and outta nowhere I started crying, I didn't notice since I was still staring out into space, my friend Josh A told me, scaring me half to death with coming from nowhere, I didn't answer just wiped my tears away before anyone else saw me being well, a crybaby as my brother likes to call me. Shows how powerful emotions are.

During 5th period, still thinking, didnt cry that time, just thinking and fell asleep since my eyes were stinging, yeah, I always get sleepy whenever I'm done crying and it was a free period anyways.

Last period, Still thinking but I was playing volleyball with my friend, doesnt matter it was still on my mind as always for half of it I think I was lying down and staring up at the plain blue sky...thats when I really got to thinking deep about him. See? when Im alone and thinking thats a danger zone for me to be crying but i didn't cry to my surprise just stayed quiet.

the rest of my day...hmm...well still thinking about him. then getting home, chatting with friends for 3 hours went inside, got into trouble, and yada yada. boring.

Well, g2g meh buds. itts sleepy time for me and i cannot stay up late anymore. >.<

and btw! if you have a youtube account add me! I made a new one, a sweeet and simple one
"WishxHope"

" Words Are Words. Actions Are Actions. I've Shown Actions and Said those 3 Words of I Love You. And I Do."

Naito [ Night. o.o ]


~ MoyashiLotus