Confused

Fck....Idk why but once I got home it was like a bad feeling went by. The move is another, the feeling of being guilty for the new msn and such is another...then My bro's still upset, I worry for him with his behaviour, it cant be pretty and I dont think I mentioned what he did last night...
he came to my house grabbed my camera deleted all his photos from there and even my computor, I just sat there and watched it go by, I never really noticed what he did till I looked at my comp and camera myself...he even took the pics I had in my album....
I was upset with him for doing that...but I can see why he would do such a thing, I dont blame him...I can tell myself he was crying that night...his eyes were red.
Then that same night he told me to stop calling him such names like Usagi or Usa-chan, like he doesnt want to be remembered like that anymore.....

I was on the phone with him today...he tried acting all happy, never works for him...then I ended up talking to my sis cuz he went outside in the RAIN with no jacket to kick the ball around and blow of some steam, yes of course the idiot got SICK. -_-
I really hope he's alright though. I hope his parents dont trust him less as it is, he doesn't need that at all.

...Don't ask about the blog before....Idk what's gonna happen or If any trust and such will ever build up ever again. My mind says one thing My heart says another. I swear it used to be so easy when i used to think with both mind and heart, now it's confusing between mind and heart...Using metaphors If you don't know. ^^

GRAH! Life's so confusing and frustrating!...I have no hapiness in me anymore. -_-
The only times I used to actually really smile was around my fam...about 2 months ago, now it's all falling apart and in a really bad way...Yeah...NO POSITIVE THING IN THIS BLOG TODAY!

And people say Im supposed to be the happy one.

Grrsherness, Ive been sick at school all week and like barely smiling, today we had an assembly and I had to red some stuff and people thought I was DEPRESSED. Idk if it's with what's going on or If it's just me. *shrugs*
At least I won the cooperation award. Im in a babyish middle school. dont ask. -_-

Well, wish me luck with the future, cuz I have a feeling it wont be pretty with what's coming to me at all...I hope it wont end up like that. I've been crying enough as it is [Most of the week/month] *sighs*

...w/e.... I guess....
YO NO ESTOY IMPORTANTE!! :'(

~ Moyashi